bloggy face lift!

yes, it's true!  i decided i want to get some blogging done, and i was tired of looking at my old blog (even though it was still pretty cool and i was very proud of it!).  so here's a nice simple theme to hold me over until i mess with it some more.

how goes it in the life of tiffers, you ask?

or you don't ask but i imagine you do in my head?

first off:  50 POUNDS LOST IN ONE YEAR.  how about them apples (them tasty, tasty apples)!?

on our three year anniversary.  <3

it's amazing.  it's like a stopped carrying a travel safe or something.  i can't imagine picking it up again.  and i'm also down about 3 dress sizes.  it's great!  i love it!  

on the down side, i'm sort of plateauing at the moment.  i'm stuck in the 243 - 240 range.  and i want to lose more before the wedding in october!  my treadmill has about had it, but i'm trying to convince chris to take walks with me outside since kentucky finally gifted us with spring weather (after trying to level us with tornadoes).

in other tiffers news:  guess who has two thumbs and is developing anxiety issues just like everybody else on both sides of her family?  this lady!

i went to the urgent care clinic because i kept having these random chest pains and my heart kept beating fast for seeming no reason.  got hooked up for an EKG and was having tiny palpitations, which the doctor who treated me told me he might be concerned about if i was 65, but not at 25.  so then she asked 'what's going on your life?  any stress?'

let's see:

failing several classes.

almost getting kicked out of school.

working overnights and not getting any sleep.

having a day off and sleeping all day because i haven't slept in 4 days.

bosses are bitches with super high expectations for one normal individual.

planning a wedding.

paying for a wedding.

no money no money no money.

keeping my grades up.

not going off on a member of management who wants 12 hours worth of work done in 8.

trying not to be a fatty.

no.  i don't see any stress here.

i left with 20 anxiety pills.

i haven't taken any.  which she told me a lot of her patients rarely take them, with mild anxiety just knowing you have them can be enough to keep the anxiety at bay.  so i keep them in my purse just in case i need them.

i make chris laugh, though,  i was reading the little pamphlet about all the side effects and told him i was scared to take them.

chris:  it's an ANXIETY PILL.  you're too scared to take it.  take one and you'll feel better, that's what it's for!

so yes, anxious tiffers waits anxiously instead of taking her anxiety medication. 

but it's all good.  i haven't had any problems since.

that's the current life of tiffers.

have a picture of my wedding dress, i should be ordering it in the next few days.

peace.

i can't wait to walk down the aisle in this!  <3

hello again bloggy.

i want to be a blogger again.  

since the last time i blogged at you, i haven't gotten much done on the 'changing schools' front.

as i looked more deeply into my school finances, it looks like i'd have to pay this school some amount of money before they will release my transcripts to other schools.  probably because i've been doing so poorly lately.  i did pass my last class though!  barely, but i made it!

my next class is finally getting back into art and illustration.  i hope that this upcoming class will revive my artistic side because i miss it.  i miss doodling in the margins of papers.  i miss painting just to paint.  i miss drawing and erasing and drawing again until it turns into something i'm happy with.  i still love crafting and such, but it's not the same.  i dunno, random depressed artist paragraph, i suppose.

in other news, according to my phone, i am getting married in about 8 months.  hooray!  what do i have for this wedding.  NOTHING.  nothing at all.  not even a list.  i've picked out my dress, but i'm not ordering it yet.  and that's about it.  this is getting hard.  i've tried three times to just figure out who's going to show up for this thing, but everyone falls into three categories:

1.  people who will show up;

2.  family who you have to invite as a courtesy, but that probably won't come.

3.  friends and family that say they are coming, but you just have a nagging feeling that they won't.

this makes things very difficult, especially when it comes to planning you know, how to feed them and seat them and such.  sigh.  luckily i have a lot of people who want to help, so i guess i just need to put them to work!

i cannot wait for my wedding.  i picture it everyday.  i imagine my dad walking me down the aisle and a nice little intimate group of people and music and laughing and i know it's going to be amazing no matter if some people are standing up or if we all only get a bite of cake.

peace.

oh blogger.

been having so much trouble with school lately.

apparently i missed the end of class.  i don't even know how.  i was just doing class stuff a few days ago and didn't even realize the class was almost over.

i'm going to go on a bleeding artist rant for a moment.

i hate this school now.  not the school really, but trying to become some sort of professional artist has actually made me *hate* art.  i hate it.  i haven't drawn or painted for myself in months (and enjoyed it, anyway), and the things i've produced for classes i find to be below my standards, like, i know i could do better but all i can think the whole time i'm making them is about how miserable i am, how this degree isn't gonna get me a good job and that i'll be a college graduate still working at walmart.  D:

i'm trying to switch schools, which my current school wants nothing to do with and can only think about my government money that they're gonna lose, and i'm still waiting to hear back from the other school i've spoken too.  i'm still gonna do some research though before i pick one, i've requested to not take a class this session so that i have time to think things through and look around.  

for those interested, i want to study elementary education and possibly take my art-y knowledge in the direction of being an art teacher.  i learned to love art as a child and would love to be able to teach other children to love it as well.  i never thought i would like to work with kids, but when it comes to this i'm pretty stoked about it.  

not to mention that an education career is a little more stable than that of an artist, plus i could always do my art-ing on the side and learn to enjoy it again.

so that's my serious rant.

here's a kitty to make you feel better.

peace.

a *sigh* blog.

we'll start this blog with awesomeness.

just had an awesome three-ish days with my dude, even if i had to work two of them.  did a lot of cuddly things, crafty things, shopping things, gaming things and generally hanging out with my husband-to-be kind of things.  it was totally awesome, and yes, i will  keep saying awesome because you just can't have too much awesome.

in other awesome news, my mixed media glass is going pretty well, except for the fact that i'm already tired of drawing tea sets but still has several more tea set drawings looming on the horizon.

i mean, for realsies?  do i need this many
tea sets to choose from?

i'm going to be picking thumbnails from this sheet to use for the rest of this class.  one week down, four and a half more to go.  sigh!  i'm guessing if we continue at three a week i have nine more plus a final.  sigh again.  D:

but now to the real sigh part of my blog.

i'm feeling very torn about my job.  and here's the reason.  i fucking love this job.  i love it.  i do.  the problem here is this:  the manager that hired me was training me to be a key holder so that i could help them out with closing some nights.  the manager that hired me is gone.  i think she transfered to another store, but i'm not sure.  and no more of this training has gone on since she left, so i figure it's not gonna happen now.  and since it's not gonna happen, i've been off about four days a week.  i actually have the next *five* days off this week.

but what i'm really afraid of is this:  the manager that hired me promised to keep me after the holidays as a regular part timer.  i don't think the new manager we get will necessarily have to live up to that.  especially considering now that the holidays are over, this store is *dead*.  i spend a lot of time reading the books in the store because there is nothing going on.  even when the store is full, people just aren't buying anything.  so part of me is afraid that when we do get a new manager i may not even be able to keep my job.

this really sucks for somebody who just got engaged, is trying to move out and also tentatively planning a wedding.

i wonder if all my papa john's phone answering experience would get me points toward a secretarial job.  i can't keep taking these part time retail jobs that make promises to me that they can't keep.  i've taken lots of courses on the most commonly used computer programs, i can make a spread sheet, i can type pretty fast (and with correct capital letters, contrary to the look of my blog), i can answer phones. . .that sounds secretary-ish to me.  anyway, i'm gonna get a resume together and those are the jobs i'm going to apply for.  hopefully that will go well.

oh well.  we'll just have to see.  i'm off now to call my dude and then try to crochet a hat.

peace.